Fides.

I never thought that there would come a time in my life when I would loose faith.
But surprise, I'm losing my faith in two of the people that are close to me.
They've hurt me unintentionally one to many times.
Even though it may not be a huge thing, maybe just a tiny piece.
I don't like drama and try to do my best to live without it.
But even the biggest dramaqueen and the loneliest maverick has to admit that even the smallest pieces makes, in the end, a huge piece?
Now my faith is slowy fading away. And they won't even notice, they're to wrapped up in their own lives.
Maybe it's to much to ask them to care? Which in case I mean really care.
Maybe I'm the one who has to high of demands?
All I'm asking for is to be treated the same way I treat you. It feels like I'm giving my heart and soul and all I get back in return is this common friendship that sometimes, most of the times, is chilly or moody.
But right now it feels like I'm at the end of my rope. I've never herd myself talk like this before.
To be so careless. I don't even care. I can't be bothered to.
It brakes my heart a little bit more every single time I realise it.
It's making me so tired.
And that really scares the living crap out of me.
Because when you loose faith, hope is not far away. And when all faith and hope is gone all that is left is the cold unbearing truth.
- In the end we're all alone. -
But I quote some Tennesse Williams.
"When so many are lonely as seem to be lonely, it would be inexcusably selfish to be lonely alone."
Maybe we can loose our faith in the human rase together?
Maybe loneliness isn't for us?
Or maybe this is the last ounce of faith inside of me reaching out hoping to gain some more before it perishes for good?